I have mentioned before that 2011 was the year of the holding pattern, and that I felt that 2012 would be the year of digging in and pressing forward, of hard work to get where we wanted to be. I said that I thought it would be uncomfortable, but that it would rock our socks off. You guys, I had no idea. But somehow, I sensed this, and somehow, remembering that makes all that we are working through so much less stressful. I knew it would be like this, and at that same time I knew that it would all work out just fine.
I think that there are things going on all the time that we can't see, moving us in the direction we are supposed to go. I think that, somehow, the things I need to know to get through this time are being given to me. I think it has to do with all the love that is directed toward Elvie already, and toward us. I think it has to do with my gentle and patient godmother praying for me. I think it has to do with so many things that we neither see nor would truly understand. I am just grateful for the peace, for the encouragement to keep going, that the payoff is just around the corner. 2012 is going to be more work--joyous work, heartbreaking work, even tedious work--but 2013 is going to be our year. I'm going to say it now.
I know that 2012 will see my tiny baby in surgery and in pain. I know that 2012 will have a steep learning curve as we adjust to being a family of four. I know that 2012 will, absolutely and incredibly, rock our socks off.
I heard this song as part of a video on another blog, and there's something about it that makes me feel so good about where we are right now, about how we are building our family and the work it takes to get there.
And anytime someone asks me
How it all unfolded
I'll tell them
Such incredible chances
Make for marvelous love
Such incredible chances indeed. I feel so blessed and lucky every single day.