Zinashi is feeling some big feelings right now, using behaviors to push us away because it's easier than being vulnerable. We are going back to Ethiopia, and she is excited, and she is terrified. I don't know why it didn't occur to me until the end of two days of working so hard to help her make good choices, only to fail miserably, but sometimes I'm a little slow. We are walking into fighting for our second daughter, but we still need to fight for Zinashi, too. We need to fight to teach her that this is forever. We need to fight to chase away the fear that what happened before could happen again. We need to fight to make her feel irrevocably and unconditionally loved.
So this song is for my little girl, who still needs her Mami to fight for her. I promise that I will, always, no matter what.