There is so much I could say about Zinashi, and I never feel like I can say it right. There have been so many big things happening in her little life lately, and yet she has handled all of them with aplomb, or as much aplomb as a five-year-old who is sometimes overtired can possibly muster.
In Ethiopia, she became a big sister, and less than a week later, she reconnected with the family who loved her first, who loves her still. I won't give the details of her reactions or how exactly it went, but I will say that I am so humbled to be her mother. She walked away stronger from something that I was afraid might make her more confused. I knew in my gut that it needed to happen, but that didn't mean that I wasn't scared that it would introduce a new level of uncertainty into her life. And yet, it seems to have done the opposite.
She was so happy to get home, and I know that it has been hard for her to have both Jarod and me gone during the day, and always one of us at the hospital instead of with her. This weekend has been good for both of us, and I feel like my time at home has given Zinashi enough of her normal life to get her through. I suppose you could say the same of me; I have needed the normal, too, and I have needed to reconnect with Zinashi in a way that is not rushed.
She is such a delight, even when she is struggling through something, and I miss her every day that I am away. She deserves more than just bathtime and bedtime with me, and she has been so understanding of why that's all there is so much of the time.
Zinashi loves being a big sister, and I am so grateful that she is old enough to understand what is happening and wants to help her little sister. She loves to tell Elvie stories and would be thrilled if I let her take over bottle and diaper duty. Before we met Elvie, she was hot and cold on the idea of being the big sister, but now she is proud.
Nearly two years after landing in our arms, Zinashi continues to surprise and delight me. I really couldn't ask for more. I look at both my daughters and think, "We hit the jackpot." I can't imagine a better life, and I can't wait to live it all together at home.