Sunday, January 12, 2014

One Dozen Days of Taking Better Care of Myself

In case you're worried that the Whole30 is all about deprivation, I present
today's brunch offerings as evidence to the contrary. Mmm...carnitas...

I've been doing this round of the Whole30 for twelve days now, and I have to admit that I'm feeling better. I sleep better. My energy is picking up. My moods are evening out. And best of all, I feel really good about what I'm cooking and eating and feeding my family. (Except for that bag of barbecue Pirate's Booty I bought for the girls, but let's pretend that didn't happen. I mean, at least it was gluten free. I guess.)

My goal this time around (it's my fourth time around, for those keeping track at home), was not just to reset nutritionally, though that was certainly part of it. It was to make some changes that would be sustainable, to drop some bad habits and to pick up some good ones. I want to get to the end of this thirty days with tools to live a healthier, more balanced life.

So in addition to eating the Whole30 way, I've also been going to bed by midnight every night. I realize this still seems late, but it's better than 1am or 2am. It gives me between seven and eight hours of sleep each night, depending on when Elvie wakes in the morning. I finally realized that sleep deprivation is not a badge of honor, and I'm doing it. Elvie still wakes in the night, but this has been such a positive change for me. Each day I feel like I've come a little closer to catching up on all the sleep I missed over the past eighteen months. I don't yet feel incredible, but I'm pretty sure I will.

The last piece of this puzzle that I'm hoping to work in is exercise. I was doing short runs of intervals prior to Elvie's surgery, and I had delusions dreams that I could continue once she was out of the hospital, but I had no idea how much work it would be to care for Elvie in her brace, and that quickly became my workout. I have been too exhausted at the end of the day to do anything else. However, brace time is (hopefully) drawing to a close. I want to exercise. I will exercise. And hopefully I'll starting doing it before the month is over.

I've been mulling over these past eighteen months, thinking of what I sacrificed in order to get Elvie healthy and help Zinashi work through her own complicated feelings, and I am still of the mind that I would do it all over again the same way, including the pudding parfaits. Maybe especially the pudding parfaits. I needed to let a lot of things go in order to be there for my girls, and I'll be honest that sometimes eating my chocolate-flavored feelings helped. It really did. Now, though, I've got a chance to do better for myself. Life hasn't lost its challenges, and in fact I think I might have been a bit crazy to take on the Whole30 before Elvie was out of her brace, but I'm so glad that I'm doing it.

As the year rolls by, as surely it will, I hope to find myself keeping up with my new habits. I don't have any huge personal goals for 2014 beyond this. I think it's enough. In fact, I know it is.

1 comment:

  1. The exercising part is sooo hard with kids. Every time I get a good routine going, there is some school break that knocks me off track and getting back to it in winter - bleh. I'm impressed with your efforts. I'm inspired. I am going on my morning walk tomorrow! Unless its too icy...

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